Yes I'm amazing at bloggingggg.. not..
Lol sorry guys I get so wrapped up in life I forget to slow down and write about it. Well lately Harlow has been stiff and cranky again we're praying it's just her teeth and that's her way of telling us cus I don't know what else it could be? It's super frustrating not being able to help her and the only thing that seems to work is leave her alone which sucks cus I want to hold her and be there for her but clearly she's little miss independent .. oh life when did you get so damn hard? Life has become so much more real to me now not that it wasn't real before but the " oh that won't happen to me" happened with my dad and my daughter so I'm so scared of something happening to me or bobby now for the most part we're some what healthy I mean could be worse but could be better who seriously follows the food pyramid these days? I have had a problem with my left shoulder for years now and it has been progressively getting worse to the point where it's all I can possibly think about because it's always hurting but I'm too scared to get surgery because I can't not be there for harlow n bobby ... also this is where knowing my family's history would come in handy but we've already been over that never gonna happen so I guess I'm officially a mom now worrying about everything seeing things different and seeing how everything can possibly hurt you so this is fun lol.. I love my life tho don't get me wrong I think of all the times before harlow was here and how easy things were but it will never compare to her being her and how much love we have for her it's worth every second sometimes it's funny when we go to dinner and are hooking her up to her tube and it's like wtf is going on how did we get here?! But I am greatful for all I've learned so far and it's only been 9 months I can't wait for what else I'm gunna learn I'm starting to really like the new me I catch my self wanting to help others so much more and being more kind to strangers I don't judge in my head like I used to (face it we all did it at one point) I'm able to think I wonder what's going on in that persons life instead of thinking oh gosh why are you being so dramatic don't get me wrong I still have my moments where I get annoyed by random stuff but I am still a girl I still get crazy once a month lol! My post partum seems to have jumped in to the back seat again thank god cus it rising shot gun was really annoying but if I've learned anything it's not over just yet whenever I think I've kicked it and I'm finally happy and content it rears its ugly face and says oh let's have some fun shall we? I hope it stays away but who knows I know I still have my down days and says where I can't stand this happening to Harlow but they don't come as often as they did before so I'm greatful for that... I think that's all for now talk to you guys later! ❤️